Not ready to make nice

Forgive, sounds good

Forget, I'm not sure I could

They say time heals everything

but I'm still waiting

I know you said

can't you just get over it

It turned my whole world around

and I kind of like it

Am I just pretty face?

There where is darkest, is no more painted faces

everybody takes of their masks

what's left then?

Cute stuff

I have been sooooo tired past week, don't even really know why.
It could be cause we have really busy time in school and it was quite stressful and also it's dark and rainy and cold all the time :/

but, I'm really happy, that even though it's been quite busy in school I got really great classmates, with who I can laugh and make fun about stupid things (and even cry, if I feel like it)

also, here is few pics of me from past weeks, I've been noticing that when it's really busy and I'm almost all day in my role clothes I really love those evenings when we go to see my friends theatre performance and I could wear dress and be really girly.

and today, I was really pampering myself. I sleep long, drink coffee and then go to store, buy some organic redwine and make chickensalad with carrots and cheese, it was so good :)

ps. about that cute stuff, this is one of the cutest things in awhile :)

Thriller night

Kaiken koulukiireen keskellä ehdittiin luokkalaisten kanssa tekemään ja harjoittelemaan koreografia Thrilleriin amk:in halloween pippaloihin. Lisä kiirettä kyllä museodraaman ohella, mutta ihana irtiotto ja pään tyhjennys kyllä tuo keskiviikko iltainen tanssahtelu :)

Ja kun kerran zombeilun makuun päästiin tanssin muodossa, niin maskit ja vaatteet piti tietty olla myös sen mukaisia (ja kun kerrankin meikkaa itsensä rumaksi baaria varten niin pitihän siitä napata ihan liian monta kuvaa)

Tanssin videointi ikävä kyllä epäonnistui, mutta jos vaikka saataisiin tanssittua uudemman kerran vain videointia varten, niin ehkä sitäkin näkee sitten ;P

veren määrä oli melko ylitsevuotava (kirjaimellisesti) koska huomattiin, että tekoverellä läträäminen voi olla yllättävän hauskaa puuhaa :D

Ulkonakin piti käydä kuvailemassa pakkasesta huolimatta, zombithan ei palele?

ps. sorry for english readers, felt like writing finnish this time, these are pics from our Halloween party dance looks for thriller

Songs that makes me sing, cry, dance, go crazy, lie down on the ground and just feel so DAMN much

I had quite rough day at school yesterday, it was physically and mentally rough day. 

I didn't even realize until school day was over, but after words I felt really sleepy and wanted to just nestle under my blanket and feel sad.

Ayway, I felt better after two hour nap next to my really good friend, but this morning wasn't so good.. cause I'm never late from school stuff and this morning I missed my alarm and because of that I missed my development discussion with my teacher...

but yesterday and today (and some days at last couple of weeks when I've been missing my friends in south and feeling happy with people here and feeling messy about some relationships, I've been noticing some old and new songs that always make me feel.... so so much!

elämä ois saatanan kaunista

istuisin sun vieressä kuistilla

aurinko ois kasvojas pitkin

jos kaipuusta itkin

en itkisi uudestaan

Every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end

is it enough to love

is it enough to breath

somebody rip my heart out

and leave me here to bleed

is it enough to die

somebody saved my life

I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

turha on siskot, musta murhetta valmiissa maailmassa kantaa

maanantai oli pilvinen päivä, mut tänään jo valoo antaa

and now I'll close my eyes really, really tight

and make you all go away

I'll make you all go away

this song just makes me smile and dance

olen kasvanut kiinni lähtöön, kaupungin kaipuuseen

dreaming dreams with happy endings

in backyards, winning battles with our wooden swords

but now we've stepped into a cruel world

where everybody stands up and keeps score

and my quite new favourite moving song that makes me feel almost every feeling I could at same time

and I've been a fool and I've been blind

I can never leave the past behind

I can see no way, I can see no way

I'm always dragging that horse around

How to live with roommates, theathre, autumn and million other things

Starting to feel like home in here.

My room is a mess and first fights about dishes has been fighten and we're still fine with boys (who I live with)

My classmates are really awesome and I looooove to study what I'm studying here. There's a lot of stuff that I knew already, but this is just starting and some recap can't hurt right?

you "maybe" noticed, that my hair colour is different now. I just coloured it at this week :) on monday.

I get bored to be blond (and colour wasn't that pretty anymore) so I decided to be redishbrunet again :)

I seriously should be packing right now, cause I'm going to visit my friends at south at weekend, but I'm feeling soooooo lazy.

But now I'm going to pack up, really!

ps. here some pics from my room.. just two, cause its so messy in here :P

I la-la-love Lowlands

I were in Netherlands, visiting my friend and going to festival, Lowlands.

And I really loved it, I met so so many new people, new awesome people :)

Weather was so hot all the time, over 30 degrees, little bit too hot for me, but good for water fighting :P

There's pic, from LLow gates, night before it started 

and pics from my new dutch friends :)

Skrillex

and the mess we and our neighbours made...

(monday morning)

most beautiful sunset at Harderwijk

and under a movietheatre, we went to see new batman that was awesome, liked it very much

(and they got place that they can buy candy and drinks inside room that we go to look movies, that was new for me)

Cappucino at market, last morning in Netherlands

I want to go back at next summer soooooo bad!

And now I'm at my new home and here is just a big mess and I've gotta do something about it, NOW!

(I add some pics from here, when I get everything in order :))