Songs that makes me sing, cry, dance, go crazy, lie down on the ground and just feel so DAMN much

I had quite rough day at school yesterday, it was physically and mentally rough day. 

I didn't even realize until school day was over, but after words I felt really sleepy and wanted to just nestle under my blanket and feel sad.

Ayway, I felt better after two hour nap next to my really good friend, but this morning wasn't so good.. cause I'm never late from school stuff and this morning I missed my alarm and because of that I missed my development discussion with my teacher...

but yesterday and today (and some days at last couple of weeks when I've been missing my friends in south and feeling happy with people here and feeling messy about some relationships, I've been noticing some old and new songs that always make me feel.... so so much!

elämä ois saatanan kaunista

istuisin sun vieressä kuistilla

aurinko ois kasvojas pitkin

jos kaipuusta itkin

en itkisi uudestaan

Every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end

is it enough to love

is it enough to breath

somebody rip my heart out

and leave me here to bleed

is it enough to die

somebody saved my life

I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

turha on siskot, musta murhetta valmiissa maailmassa kantaa

maanantai oli pilvinen päivä, mut tänään jo valoo antaa

and now I'll close my eyes really, really tight

and make you all go away

I'll make you all go away

this song just makes me smile and dance

olen kasvanut kiinni lähtöön, kaupungin kaipuuseen

dreaming dreams with happy endings

in backyards, winning battles with our wooden swords

but now we've stepped into a cruel world

where everybody stands up and keeps score

and my quite new favourite moving song that makes me feel almost every feeling I could at same time

and I've been a fool and I've been blind

I can never leave the past behind

I can see no way, I can see no way

I'm always dragging that horse around

How to live with roommates, theathre, autumn and million other things

Starting to feel like home in here.

My room is a mess and first fights about dishes has been fighten and we're still fine with boys (who I live with)

My classmates are really awesome and I looooove to study what I'm studying here. There's a lot of stuff that I knew already, but this is just starting and some recap can't hurt right?

you "maybe" noticed, that my hair colour is different now. I just coloured it at this week :) on monday.

I get bored to be blond (and colour wasn't that pretty anymore) so I decided to be redishbrunet again :)

I seriously should be packing right now, cause I'm going to visit my friends at south at weekend, but I'm feeling soooooo lazy.

But now I'm going to pack up, really!

ps. here some pics from my room.. just two, cause its so messy in here :P

I la-la-love Lowlands

I were in Netherlands, visiting my friend and going to festival, Lowlands.

And I really loved it, I met so so many new people, new awesome people :)

Weather was so hot all the time, over 30 degrees, little bit too hot for me, but good for water fighting :P

There's pic, from LLow gates, night before it started 

and pics from my new dutch friends :)

Skrillex

and the mess we and our neighbours made...

(monday morning)

most beautiful sunset at Harderwijk

and under a movietheatre, we went to see new batman that was awesome, liked it very much

(and they got place that they can buy candy and drinks inside room that we go to look movies, that was new for me)

Cappucino at market, last morning in Netherlands

I want to go back at next summer soooooo bad!

And now I'm at my new home and here is just a big mess and I've gotta do something about it, NOW!

(I add some pics from here, when I get everything in order :))

People I've loved, I have no regrets...

...some I remember, some I forget

So my moving is almost done, now all my stuff are at my dads place and tomorrow we're going to drive to Kokkola and take all this stuff there. 

I'm coming back south though, cause 15th of this month I'm going to Netherlands (can't wait for it!!) so it's easier (and cheaper) to stay here till I go to the airport and then when I get back Finland go straight from Helsinki to Kokkola 

(and no one wanted to read that much about that really :P)

So I also had to think today, what I need from now till ... umm... 23th of this mont

and it's way too much, thinking about clothes I mean :P

or well.. that's what I thought but then it was quite easy, I really don't need all these clothes that I have, I have them wayyyyyyy too much

And now I'm just sitting here and thinking that I seriously should do everything else but write this blog and do nothing wise 

I could like... I don't know, check all those boxes, wich I want to take with me and wich I will leave here to my dads... (wich he will like :DD)

sooooooo

now I maybe go... and do something to eat and then put everything in really, really good order and then...

something

(this must be really interesting to read :D just me "talking" to myself... welcome to my head, this is how weird there is... and now I'm way too tired to write... and this sounds bit insane.. so I'm going to stop. 

seriously

NOW!)

ps. my friend played this to me today and I kinda like about this song now (he performed it way better though)

I've been little bit lost without you

and I'm a bloody big mess inside

Last week was soooo great, I had so many memorable things and meet new people

and that almost hurts.. cause I'm moving away. So it's kind of unfair to meet great people now.

Yesterday dad picked up most of my stuff so it's really empty in here now, it's weird.

Now I should really pack rest of my stuff and clean this place and then go to my sisters place (I'm going to stay there for few nights.. cause I still have work in here.)

Here is just few pics that I took yesterday, when I had so much space to take pics :DD

hmh.. I feel sooooo weird.

can't write anything sensible now, so I will just stop.

How can you show me paradise when I'm leaving?

Summer is finally here (yes, I know it has been "summer" already like two months.. but it's been raining all the time)

And I can wear my shorts, and I loooooove that :)

(I have noticed, that when reading my blog you can find out that I love lot of things :DD)

Now I should be packing all my stuff, mum picked up some of them this morning and I got a feeling that maybe all this stuff will end someday (alrhought it feels like I have waaaay too much things..)

Tomorrow dad will come and take rest of them, and then I just have to clean this place up and it's about that..

weird 

I'm going to be "homeless" for almost a month

I have apartment in that city where I'm moving to, but I can't get my stuff (or myself) there before second last week of august, so I'm just living at my sister's and my dad's place (and at my friends place who I will visit in netherlands, I wait that so so much!)

Now I'm going to swimming with friend and after that I will (seriously!!) pack up :p